An hour ago I was procrastinating (as usual), thinking it might be better for me to turn the lights off and get some sleep. An hour ago I was just f5ing all my internet tabs when I said to myself "I'll just check out my e-mail one more time" (without really having to check it).
"Oh I do have an e-mail. Let's see...ordered list of candidates erasmus 2010?"
I was really sleepy and didn't grasp what I was about to see.
I read the first sentence:
"This e-mail is to confirm the receipt of your application and disclose the ordered list of candidates (...)"
"Wait...what?"
The erasmus coordinator said the list would only be disclosed monday (or tuesday)! Since last wednesday, when I made my application, I was so anxious to know it but, for a moment, I thought I didn't want to find out. Not now! It's just a plain saturday dawn and I was already planning on going to sleep! I wasn't psychologicaly prepared in the moment!
There was an excel file enclosed so I opened it, trying not to overthink it. Pretending I was just opening a file like all the others.
On the first glance I saw two people above my name that had pick Hungary as first option. I thought i wasn't going to Budapest and got a little disapointed but my heart was beating so fast I didn't even realize anything! The list didn't stat where would anyone go so we had to do that part of the job. I checked it in autopilot mode, highlighting the name of the destiny to every name on the sheet. By this time, with all the nerves, I was just seeing if I got Graz (Austria) or Leuven (Belgium). I just didn't care anymore! You could put me in a box with a stamp to Timbuktu that I would go anyway!
This is when i realized the two girls above me that we're going to Hungary ("instead of me") picked the first semester. "I chose to go in the second semester so...". I was nearly colapsing so before saying to myself "I MADE IT!" I decided to check the list one more time from the beggining.
"AM I GOING TO BUDAPEST? YES, I AM! I MADE IT!"
This is when it got a little bit weird. My reaction wasn't shout (1am, but still...), jump or block. I was rolling on my bed making autistic noises like "mmmm mmmmfff nheeee".
I checked the list one more time (but not the last!) to see if my friends would also go to where they want to. Most of them could make it! I was so happy I just wanted to call everyone and shout! I only spoke to two people, and text messaged a few more. I can't wait to tell my family, boyfriend and closest friends!
So this is it. I am leaving Portugal in January to study in Budapest, Hungary, for one semester! - It felt weird to write that sentence because I haven't fully realized this is real.
There is still almost an year left so why has this blog already created? I may be going only in January but my erasmus experience starts now.
Also, how could I go to sleep after this excitment?
Tomorrow will be a new and plain day.
"Oh I do have an e-mail. Let's see...ordered list of candidates erasmus 2010?"
I was really sleepy and didn't grasp what I was about to see.
I read the first sentence:
"This e-mail is to confirm the receipt of your application and disclose the ordered list of candidates (...)"
"Wait...what?"
The erasmus coordinator said the list would only be disclosed monday (or tuesday)! Since last wednesday, when I made my application, I was so anxious to know it but, for a moment, I thought I didn't want to find out. Not now! It's just a plain saturday dawn and I was already planning on going to sleep! I wasn't psychologicaly prepared in the moment!
There was an excel file enclosed so I opened it, trying not to overthink it. Pretending I was just opening a file like all the others.
On the first glance I saw two people above my name that had pick Hungary as first option. I thought i wasn't going to Budapest and got a little disapointed but my heart was beating so fast I didn't even realize anything! The list didn't stat where would anyone go so we had to do that part of the job. I checked it in autopilot mode, highlighting the name of the destiny to every name on the sheet. By this time, with all the nerves, I was just seeing if I got Graz (Austria) or Leuven (Belgium). I just didn't care anymore! You could put me in a box with a stamp to Timbuktu that I would go anyway!
This is when i realized the two girls above me that we're going to Hungary ("instead of me") picked the first semester. "I chose to go in the second semester so...". I was nearly colapsing so before saying to myself "I MADE IT!" I decided to check the list one more time from the beggining.
"AM I GOING TO BUDAPEST? YES, I AM! I MADE IT!"
This is when it got a little bit weird. My reaction wasn't shout (1am, but still...), jump or block. I was rolling on my bed making autistic noises like "mmmm mmmmfff nheeee".
I checked the list one more time (but not the last!) to see if my friends would also go to where they want to. Most of them could make it! I was so happy I just wanted to call everyone and shout! I only spoke to two people, and text messaged a few more. I can't wait to tell my family, boyfriend and closest friends!
So this is it. I am leaving Portugal in January to study in Budapest, Hungary, for one semester! - It felt weird to write that sentence because I haven't fully realized this is real.
There is still almost an year left so why has this blog already created? I may be going only in January but my erasmus experience starts now.
Also, how could I go to sleep after this excitment?
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